Team Ellie

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Wednesday 30 December 2015

Christmas 2015

I just want to start off by apologising for this post being so late, unfortunately I wasn't able to post this yesterday as I was having computer difficulties. Who else thinks about how outrageously fast christmas ends? There's such a lead up, then you have christmas day and then it's just ends. It's rather sad really, don't you think? It seems to be that all the christmas spirit has just gone, therefore it's my mission to give you a final bit of christmas spirit with this post. CHRISTMAS ISN'T OVER YET!

As always I woke up first in my household at 9:00am, which is actually quite late for my family on any day but especially christmas day! In previous years I would wake up and usually I wouldn't be able to contain my excitement that it was Christmas day at last, however this year it felt like any other day, I'm not sure if I reacted this way because I am getting older or the fact that there was hardly any christmas spirit. You can't be excited for christmas without any christmas spirit, right? In the morning we go downstairs and open our presents straight away. I can't even explain how grateful I am for all the presents I received this year, my favourite present is the present i am using to write this blog with... A MACBOOK PRO! This was not on my christmas list at all, i was so shocked when i got it, i even cried-with joy of course! These are a few pictures of presents I got this year.


After an enjoyable morning opening presents, my family arrived! It was nice to be able to sit and relax, usually on christmas we have to travel an hour to my nan's house but due to me being ill they came to us! It was very manic, there was a total of 18 people in my house. The adults chatted whilst indulging red wine and the kids ran around the house making so much mess, they reminded me of Taz from the looney tunes! We ate a gorgeous christmas diner, I really don't know how my nan & mum coped cooking for 18 people, they were real heroes in the kitchen!


My first christmas having cancer was really good, and like any other, however being ill does pay it's price and sadly my christmas quickly ended when I had to go into hospital with a temperature. It was pretty disappointing as i was determined to be out of hospital this christmas, but luckily i managed to celebrate most of christmas day. The christmas spirit basically ended for me when i got into hospital, but somehow Hospital santa knew i was going to be coming in late on christmas day and saved me a sack of presents! The presents definitely cheered me up but spending boxing day in hospital sucked, so I resorted myself to the online boxing day sales. When you are in hospital a bit of retail therapy definitely cheers you up! 

I hope you had a great christmas, and I hope i achieved my mission of giving you a final bit of christmas spirit. 
Thank you for reading. x

Monday 28 December 2015

A sad ending to christmas

HEY, me again! Seems like years since I have written a post. Of course I would have done a post sooner if it wasn't for the fact that I was in hospital. Sadly all my christmas festivity had to halt to an end as I was taken to hospital with a temperature. Luckily my temperature started at 10pm, so I did get to enjoy most of christmas day, however I wasn't feeling great- I had a whoozy head and I was extremely tired. Despite the fact my christmas didn't end very well it was an amazing day, I received great gifts and I got to see my family. Tomorrow I will be posting about my Christmas day, what gifts I got and a few pictures of the day.

Thank you for reading.

Thursday 24 December 2015

Christmas Eve DISASTER!!!

Less than a few hours until Christmas now, how exciting? I am constantly checking my Santa tracker, and currently he is in Albania! This year I envisioned a magical Christmas eve-cozied up in new pyjamas, watching Christmas movies and making gingerbread cookies- however being ill doesn't make it easy, by the first half hour of our first movie I was ready to hit the hay.

Even though Christmas eve wasn't how I envisioned, it was by far the most eventful. As if we haven't had enough bad luck already, our oven miraculously stops working! So the first half of Christmas Eve day was spent buying and fitting a new oven, I was not impressed, but I guess we can be thankful that our oven didn't decide to pack up on Christmas day, that would have been an absolute disaster!

              I hope you have had a magical Christmas eve, and Merry Christmas for tomorrow!



 
 

Saturday 19 December 2015

Feeling down

First, I want to say sorry that I haven't blogged in a long time but this week I haven't been feeling great. I had chemo on Monday through 'til Wednesday, and it was horrible- the nausea was unbearable!  Fortunately the nurses gave me a medicine which is a powerful anti sickness, however it kind of knocks you out, so on the Tuesday I was asleep for most of the day!When I was diagnosed I had to stay in hospital for a month! I really don't know how I coped, now only 3 days feels like forever! I came into the ward determined to spread some Christmas spirit, however I wasn't successful. Is it just me or does it not feel like Christmas at all? Christmas is only in 6 days and I'm not feeling the festive spirit at all!


 
Feeling down is the worst feeling ever, it feels as if you have a burden over you all the time. Recently, I've been feeling extremely down about my whole situation, this life isn't easy, and it all got on top of me. I miss my old life so much- I was healthy, sporty and social- now I have to live a life I don't even want. Everything about my new life is horrible, I cant go and meet my friends, I cant do sports and school, all the normality of my life is gone. Chemo, tests, scans, hospital, medication are all my new normal. It's understandable why this all got on top of me and I felt down, I am just so grateful to have such a supportive family to help me through this. This may be the life I don't want but I cant do anything about it, I just have to keep fighting and being strong.
REMEMBER: Everyone feels down sometimes, it makes you feel weak and hopeless. Don't let this weaken you, you are strong, you have to believe that you are strong enough to overcome it.
 
Team Ellie xxx

Tuesday 8 December 2015

Introduction


    

I am Ellie Waters, a 14 year old girl from Northampton. I love school, sports and socialising, but there is only one thing stopping me from doing the things I love...cancer.
It was so unexpected how my life changed in what seemed like a click of a finger. One minute I was a healthy teenage girl, but the next minute I was aware that my body was being taken over by a deadly beast!
It has nearly been 3 months since I received the life changing news. These past 3 months have been the hardest of my life, and I find writing a great way of coping. Writing about my feelings and experiences has helped me psychologically to deal with everything, it is as if you are putting all your emotions on a piece of paper so that they hurt you less. Now I want to share what I have written with you so I can advise and inform you about my journey, and the journey that sadly millions of people have to suffer too.
Thank you for reading, keep tuned with my blog as there are still many amazing posts to come!